rat's

Being angry and patient at the same is not easy.
You see no point in being angry coz it's not going to change anything.
You see no point in being patient coz you've been patient enough.
So while you toggle these feelings, you wonder.
Why are you the only one feeling this way?
Is there no guilt?
Is there no conscience?
You've been told to see yourself in the mirror.
Reflect, ponder.
You are not perfect. This you've realised eons ago.
What else is there to reflect?
But why are you the only one to be asked to look in the mirror?
Shouldn't others do the same?

Happiness only comes during that time, once a month.
All is gone in a heartbeat.
Due to your own stupidity and the stupidity of others.
Yes, in a heartbeat.
Oh how this heart beats so fast sometimes.
Anxiety, despair, hopelessness, helpless.
Is there any other words to describe yourself during this time?
Any word but bliss. Perhaps.

You hope and pray God gives you strength.
The strength to face whatever.
And you know He will...